Wednesday, January 11, 2012

The Smiling Mask of Mother's Pain

Mother on Couch With Daughter

We mothers deal with so much trauma. It is in our homes, in our world, and in our minds.  Right now I am suffering massively with physical ailments. Last Sunday, I woke up and tried so hard to go to church. I actually drove partway and realized I couldn't make it. I went back home and back to bed. I stayed there, off and on for 3 days. . .  I have not recovered. . .  It is a weary sort of sickness. It is not something that is contagious or that can be diagnosed. But it is disabling.

I am trying to smile and make light of it.  One minute I am up and writing, or trying to clean something, the next I am sound asleep. It is a puzzle to the children.  My step has slowed. My work is neglected.

But I am smiling, with that sort of saint-like nature that means I am helpless and grateful.

Our children deal with so much in the world. They have problems to contend with in their own lives. They need the comfort of mother's smiles.

We need to do our very best to hide our pain. We need to make home a place of rainbows and cheer, even if we cannot walk very fast, or clean as well as we would like. We must not complain or let despair overcome us. 

The children know we suffer. They live with us. They see enough of it. Our job is to encourage their innocence, and enjoy their daily antics. 

If we can endure to the end, with that gentle, smiling mask, what a sweet memory that will be, of their dear mother.

Mrs. White

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Anonymous said...

Mrs. White, have you tried eating Gluten-Free?
Love you~

Just Me said...

I am amazed at this post today. My Dear, you have no idea how much you have helped me. God had you write this post for me today.

Wow. It's too long a story to go into but please know you blessed me today.

Thank you and I hope you feel better soon.

Much love.

Cathy said...

I'm praying for you today.

Laura Lane said...

I'm praying hope, peace, relief from pain, strength and healing for you today.


Anonymous said...

I want to thank you for your grace as you walk through your sickness. Over a yr ago, I finally acknowledged that I was chronically ill. I'd pushed and pushed for the 3+yrs prior, and gotten angry, and did too much.... But I finally realized I was not well, and I have been working to get better, but also taking the time to rest, to be sick, to be filled with the joy of the moment--sick or well. God has taught me much during this time of slowness. And reading your posts reminds me to smile, to be still, to live full of grace. :). Thank you!

Linda said...

Mrs. White, I do hope you are feeling better soon. You are such a blessing to so many! I will keep you in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry you are so ill at this time. I want you to know how blessed I am when I receive your daily writings in my email. I am so encouraged by your thoughts - our children are grown and have families of their own now - our son is a wounded marine and is struggling with that and lives so far away from us - but I have found a real joy in making a peaceful and joyous home for my husband. I see you're children are growing and leaving the nest too. I pray that God will sustain you and help you recover.
--blessings -- carol

♥ my diary♥ said...

praying for you.God bless you

Anonymous said...

lifting you up sister.
i so wish we could meet IRL.

Anonymous said...

So helpful...God bless you
Mrs. O