Friday, September 24, 2010

No Matter What it Cost Me

Library of Congress - A farm worker's home 1941 Idaho.

When we first moved to Vermont from Massachusetts, I had just gotten out of the hospital for severe physical problems. I had been a cancer patient years before and was undergoing tests and treatment for more difficulties. It was unbearable and I continued to suffer.

When we arrived in Vermont, to our newly purchased country store, Mr. White and I had a deal. I would help him, along with our children, for one year, then he would hire an employee to take over so I could tend to our home cares. This proved to be the most difficult year of my entire life. I am grateful I was right there with my husband and children. We lived above the store and it was like one big house. But most nights, I would fall into bed in tears of agony. My frail body could not endure the trauma of so much work for very long. Or, so I thought...

After many months of this, I suddenly began to heal. Most of my pain was gone. I had become stronger. I had worked so hard and the Lord had rewarded me with better health. I did my duty, no matter what it cost me.

I thought about this last night. I have been ill for several days. Just so weary. I was tempted to skip my Bible study. I was just about to fall asleep when I remembered something from the book, Stepping Heavenward, by Elizabeth Prentiss. You see, the main character, Katy, was staying up late waiting for her husband to come home. In the room with her was her elderly father-in-law who had just arrived that day to live with them. He was depressed and sorrowful. His wife had died and he felt like a burden. But he said something significant. He said something like: "At what hour does my son do family prayers?"  It was getting very late at night, and he dearly needed sleep. Katy told him not to worry, but to go on to bed. There was no need to wait for his son to come home. But he responded with something like this - "I will do my duty, no matter what it cost."  When I remembered this passage from the book, I was stung in the heart with conviction. I was startled out of my selfish stupor of being tired, and called for my Bible and record book. My dear son John (13) fetched them for me and we sat down together and did our Bible time. We did this no matter how tired we were, or how sick I was. We did it no matter what it cost.

There is a beautiful quote from Jonathan Edwards:

 ~ “Resolution One: I will live for God. Resolution Two: If no one else does, I still will.” ~

Mrs. White

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Just an Average American Mom said...

Thank you! I really needed that today!


Taryn said...

I was reading my son's Abeka Government book(12th grade) this morning and read about Jonathan Edwards. I looked him up in the encyclopedia(to read to my son about Edwards' death) then remembered that Nancy Campbell wrote about him and his family in her book- Be Fruitful and Multiply. I just wrote the resolution quotes in that book. Thank you.

Anonymous said...

absolutely beautiful. I needed that.

Catherine said...

What a lovely post. I'm stopping by with the blog walk, but I read your blog often. I live with chronic pain and fatigue, and you often inspire me. Thank you. I hope you have a wonderful weekend.

Faithfully Free Blog said...

Great post! This is what I am trying to live right now ~ No matter the cost!

Oh, and I lived on Cape Cod for 5 years! I miss it :)

Amy Walker said...

Wow! Thanks for sharing! I've been meaning to read that book again and suddenly I'm seeing it EVERYWHERE! Think it's a sign to put it on top of the pile!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Tonya said...

What a beautiful and encouraging post! Thank you so much. How special that you got to help your husband in his business adventure and that you stuck it out through your physical pain. I'm sure he must be very proud and thankful for you!
I've been here before reading your posts, so I think I'll just go ahead and follow you! :)

Ellen said...

I just finished reading Stepping heavenward...I anjoyed it very much and it gave a great bit of food for thought.♥

I enjoyed this post...just what i needed today.

Gabrielle said...

I love this!